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thanks to hm.. for e cake n everything..
today is physics practical, tts y im here.. haha..
ytd was prelim paper 1.. el i think not too bad, cl ok bah..
after tt went study with joy.. i kept e piece of paper we wrote abt tt guy.. n ill rmb how we laughed at joy, she jumped up a bit when someone behind her coughed.. haha..
then these few days like nth big happened bah.. everyday quite e same.. i still don get to understand certain things.. think still being disliked by a lot ppl.. made me feel being quite a failure in sec sch.. so sad.. still could rmb e 1st day in cch.. then now going to end, didnt even achieved anything.. pretty sad rite.. hai..
e last things i wan to achieve in cch is e report i writing for ms wong n bball team.. then is my prelim, hopes to get into jc in e 1st intake.. then is my olevel, i wan to b in tj for e 2nd intake..

1st entry at 18 yrs old.. lolx..

quite a new start..
happy bithday to me..

as an "adult", i would like to really thank those hu plays an impt role in my life, a lot of names to mention, really thanks v much..
btw, i can watch m18 today eh, haha, actually should go watch today then when e time to check ic v sehr, haha.. bt no time la, so sad..
ill watch at least 1 m18 movie tis yr, n i wan go clubbing once, cos i hav reached e legal age, haha..
bt actually, i don giv a damn la, if i can choose i would choose to b 16 lo, seriously speaking, or even 14..

ytd mon.. went to clementi sports hall to support our c boys in e semi finals i guess, guess wat, we won!! hooray~ haha, so will b fighting for championship again on thurs.. looking forward to tt day v much.. n hope tt we will win.. anyway, y am i so enthu in whether they win or not, mayb im jus interested in everything concerning bball.. besides, it is true tt all guys i liked previously r those hu play bballs..
lastly, sth i don quite get it, y do i need to do reports n interviews on my birthday for e whole day? y, i ashed for it wat, cos i forgot it would b my birthday.. by anyway i not sad, cos i enjoyed interviewing ppl.. haha.. gd luck to me tmr.. ganbede~

e last 5 min of my 17 yr old life..

sorry to ... .. tis is e last time.. im really sorry..
sorry to yy.. last time im saying tis, im truly sorry..

so tis will b my last 17 yr old entry.. n ill b spending e last 5 min of my 17 yr old life blogging..
ok 1stly i feel sad la, for i didnt spend my 17 yrs of life appropriately n meaningfully.. hai, so cliche.. its really been a lonely 17 in terms of bgr relationship, bt in terms of friendship, im v greatful to those hu had enriched my life.. thank u v much..

e last person i talked to in e class was joy.. last touched was joy, last took bus with was joy..
e last person msged me was hm..
e last guy i msged was yr, e bball player..
e 1st one wished me happy birthday was yw..
e last shuai guy i saw in e sch was e mvp, well shuai as in according to e sch.. haha..
e last person i missed was him..

so kiss gd bye to 17 yrs old, n reluctantly, welcome 18 yrs old..
dunno y im like a bit emotional n things like tt.. i think its like stepping into another process of ur life bah..

its been a long time..

sorry to ... ..
sorry to yy..
happy belated birthday to yy..
happy birthday to singapore..

ytd was national day celebration cum cross country at east coast park.. personally i felt tt its jus cross country in red, nth much diff.. anyway, gotten 34th for e whole level, 4th in class.. improved 4 places for e whole whole level, 2 places in class.. not tt satisfied, cos could hav improved more, if he didnt run jus behind me, he could b my motivation to run i think, then could improve by e few more positions.. haha..
went to bugis with joy, stinking a lot ppl on e way.. n we suddenly found tt hair spray was so cool, searched for e whole bugis to look for e purple one bt couldnt find..
n one thing v impt.. haha, i saw dx on my return bus!!! 1st must thank joy, for suggesting to take mrt.. then i suggested taking 12 at tanah merah.. so we boarded bus.. when e bus is reaching bus stop, somebody came down from upstairs, n i saw him!! ok he seemed to b more hao kan, n hes wearing tis red shirt ( forgot to c whether is it his last yr class tee.. haha ) for national day celebration, mj pants, n grey sling bag.. its like.. i dunno how to describe, bt... haha.. n i finally noe where he lived.. its e same bus stop, e other side of my hse.. haha..
anyway, read tis article abt vietnam war, how e war using chemical weapons has harmed e ppl esp kids there for 30 yrs.. i felt so sorry for them, there was one child with abnormal limbs in e pic, with pleads n desperate in his eyes, i really felt sorry.. thank god i live here, not vietnam.. i dunno how i could help them, no idea how they going to survive, bt sincerely pray for them, hoping tt there will b great things waiting for them ahead, to make up for the unhappy n unhealthy life they had now..

i dunno how to explain.. 17 days..

sorry to ... ..
sorry to yy..
happy birthday to yt..

e 1st time i find finding someone to talk is so difficult.. theres no one can talk to me, listen to me.. another failure in cchms.. y things always turns out like tis? i dunno how to describe my feeling when i saw tt la, i got into e wrong class or wat.. i dunno.. got a little bit annoyed recently, abt... .. so i guess tts going to b tt la, im not going to use it, i don wan to waste money, treat it as a sch event not a class event..
u only noe how to talk n comment, y dont u try it urself, bcos said is easier than done, ill prefer tt u jus shut up.. get it?
u may think tt we werent frens at all, jus base on today.. i dunno, jus a bit disappointed la, it was used to b like tt.. can i blame it on e olevel, bcos its so pressurising? or should i jus blame myself, for being so seemingly not enthu? to b so apparently calm n expressionless all e time?

y would things turn out tis way..?

sorry to ... ..
sorry to yy..

y.. wat was our 1st sentence today? i couldnt rmb.. is there any? y would things turn out tis way? i dunno la, bt sometimes, i really get jealous, abt wat? y? i dunno how to figure tt out.. wat has been happening ard those day? i don rmb.. wat conversation has been going on in class? wat hav i eaten in class tis wk? how do u describe e feeling of going to sch for e sake of going?
e definition of gd frens, is tt they share e same pt of view, though wat they do may differ.. frens not necessarily hav to stick together everytime to prove tt they r frens.. they r frens in their hearts.. invincible n bonds unbreakable by dist n time..
sometimes things is seemingly tis way, bt tts only e surface..
i dunno how to change myself, e ways i presented myself.. i may look angry bt im not, i may look glum bt i may b happy, i may look not so enthu bt most of e time i am excited, i my look sian bt i am really interested.. i may look like wat u think bt actually i may not b tt way.. how can i explain in such a way so tt ull understand..? i really am interested..
i agree tt we became really gd frens bcos we sits together initially, bt everything ought to hav a start.. n it don jus end anyhow, it only ends when sth happens.. sitting together was a start, bt its not going to end, jus like tt, it will not..
i dunno noe how far u hav understood wat i hav said, bt sometimes im really not e way i was expressed..
changing place was really a test of frenship, bt i believe we r gd frens.. yw n i hav known for 4 yrs, though different classes, one or 2 sentences a day or less, we will still enjoy our time when we met, back to e old days tt we hav spent together.. u will feel tt e feeling did not come back, bcos it was there all e while jus tt u didnt take notice of it..
we may seemed to b drifted apart, bt its apparently.. i believe u will understand wat i mean, well, if u really paid attention during english, haha..
i think it is similiar as me n my sis.. we may not talk to each other for 1 whole wk, bt when e time n e mood comes, theres going to b endless topics..
yes clear?

anyway, i think i really gained a lot by sitting with wilbur for jus 2 days.. yup, really thanks to wilbur.. o ya, i found out tt cc will comment sth when i 'communicating' with hm, bt didnt mention anything when it is v obvious tt wilbur n i was talking e whole lesson.. n personally i felt tt i wont do derek any gd sitting with him.. sometimes i really wanted to help bt theres no way out.. ya, so i think its gd tt we stay like tis until e oral.. although a bit sorry to wilbur.. thanks wilb..
o ya, thanks to joy too, whom i c for 18 hrs a day..

26 mins..

sorry to ... ..
sorry to yy..
1 mth anniversary to jones interview..

significant day today.. during e lunchbreak, 26mins..
personally i felt tt it was much better than last time, though i still didnt do a lot of things.. bt i think tis time is enough le, mayb nx time, ill try... .. mayb will update again if i thought of sth else..
so tts abt it.. i don feel regrets, which is gd.. :)