looking back..

sorry to ... ..
sorry to yy..

today went parkway kbox.. angela de yu yan v v.. err.. nice..? i apologise for my limited vocab :x.. went home quite early then slept e whole day.. didnt do anything again..
ytd was in sch doing deco for cny.. fri went hm hse n we finished e banner in one nite.. without sleeping.. hai.. so tiring.. bt actually v fun.. ppl invovled.. hm lh derek.. had roti prata as supper.. n we were decorating e floor using chalk.. haha.. we traced our hands n took photo of that.. we even traced derek (he lay on e floor then we traced him).. when e banner was abt to complete, dunno y we suddenly started taking photos of ourselve.. for me i think some of my photos v nice.. especially e one i took with hm.. damn nice (oops..) .. haha.. v fun.. anyway 1st overnite with lh.. derek was several times n hm many times.. actually planned to stay in sch.. bt tis yr e security v tight.. i missed e days we stayed in sch.. anyway staying with them was fun.. derek speaked lame for e whole nite.. dots.. bt we still laughed throughout.. a bit sorry for e neighbours lah.. too bad.. then went to lh hse slept a little then went sch again.. damn tiring bt still cant finish e deco.. bt v pathetic.. every class got at least half e class come back or to b cool like md which is no one came back.. unlike our class.. a few pathetic ppl only.. well special thanks to yy, henry, yl hu was e only prc, hm, derek, yl, lh, wh, n of cos xl..
wed was in fish tank doing my late compo unitil 4 sth.. then went ccs.. after that went fish tank again to meet shujuan.. then to my surprise i saw ... .. he still so tall n shuai.. n he dyed his hair to light brown.. so handsome looking.. omg.. btw i did sth v stupid bt nvm.. jus didnt expect see him on that day.. ya.. n i jus felt that its like time has went to e old times when hes still in sch bt anyway, e feeling only stayed a little while.. he wore black shirt n jeans.. although his 3 other frens wore e same thing, hes still so outstanding..
n btw.. e c lit test was damn easy.. all those difficult ones nv come out.. n i think ive basically memorised everything from e notes n jus copied everything down.. felt so relieved that i nv pon e test which i had been thinking of doing.. phew..
those few days met a lot ppl which ive nv seen for a really long time.. like... n kah hui (dunno whether spelled correctly.. saw him one day at bedok interchange..).. a lot others oso.. bt cant really remember..
cant think of any other significant things that happened recently..
todays conclusion.. yu yan rox.. i don like him like wat i did last time bt jus felt hes still handsome as b4.. thanks to e bunch of ppl that helped in e cny deco, which includes me.. haha..

recalling..

sorry to ... .. hope u forgive me.. is it possible btw us again..
sorry to yy..

wa.. so fast one mth of my sec 4 passed.. faster than ive expected..
well.. tis mth was like thought a lot.. cos is e last yr of life in chung cheng.. e so called e most precious n golden time in life is ending.. :'( i donno how to describe e feelng.. its jus sad concentrated with regrets.. jus cant stop myself from regretting n feeling sorry for e yrs wasted..
looking at e juniors n e problems n everyday life they r facing, its like seeing myself in e past.. thats wat was me.. they r jus stepping after our footsteps n so r we.. stepping after those seniors that hav graduated..
sth seemed to hav been realised bt i cant figure out wat is it.. its some kind of feeling.. that i ve been soaked in, in e past one mth..
tis mth was like really quite wasted.. cos didnt really studied much of e sec 3 work.. must buckle up le.. or else wont b able to go my dreamed tj.. jus think abt e life in tj will make me feel excited oready.. went to their open hse once.. though was quite stupid to go open hse at sec 3.. bt i did.. n tj was super.. a lot better than wat was seen on e outside..
ya.. todays dream was so memorable.. dreamed of ... at last.. its been a long time since e last time.. n how long is it since we last met? or even talk?.. hai.. hope time could heal all e wounds.. n hope one day we can... ..
btw.. today he finally smiled to me.. at that moment i seemed to feel a piece of big rock was unloaded from my heart.. err.. e expression may b quite inapprpriate bt thats how i felt.. after that incident i lived in e life of regrets.. now must treasure tis returned frenship n.. ya jus treasure it n handle it.. promise i wont do it again.. its really a promise..
todays conclusion.. frenship is fragile, must get a sticker from e airport which says:" handle with care!".. haha.. though a bit lame bt i cant help.. cos with henry cooling e environment to e maximum everyday in sch, some of e skills has been imparted.. haha.. thanks henry.. :p

downcast n melancholy

sorry to... .. i still miss u so much..
sorry to yy..

ytd went bugis.. met joy.. n finally bought e skirt that ive wanted long time ago .. feel so happy.. think going to buy a bag i saw ytd on tues.. haha.. feel so contented.. bt e amt of money spent making me feel like crying.. wuwu..
ya.. btw was given e chance to b in charge of performance planning for chinese new yr in sch.. feel so honoured.. hehe.. was like taking over a great job.. performing on that day oso..
ytd oso went co.. fredrick sounded sick.. which i think passed to me quite a bit.. cough cough.. haha.. got practice for expo.. only a few ppl which they say was specially chosen de.. e song was quite simple to me.. bt only got 2 more practices left.. ganbadene~
hai~ tis yr de 1st wish going to b gone le.. that oso made me keep thinking abt e past these few days.. only if i hadnt chosen that option few yrs ago i won feel so miserable now..
recently oso started liking e theme song of love 2000.. feel that it sounds like my feeling now.. e same yr oso leh.. so sad.. a lot questions poping out n disappearred b4 me had e time to think thru n ans.. anyway hoping e best for him n me as well.. me especially co syf tis yr n o level..
n ya.. today dream of me got into tjc.. haha.. tj so fantastic manz.. only if i can get in tj nx yr will b a great yr for me ahead..
still got a lot hw haven finish.. n three tests nx wk.. amaths egeog n clit.. feel so stressed..
if i can choose to go back to e past.. can choose any part of e time.. i wan to choose e yr.. don make such a stupid decision.. get better results for psle.. don waste time in sec one two n three..
bt at least sec 3 is better.. i did a lot things i dream of doing it like climbing e gate.. haha.. last yr was such a memorable yr..
today's feeling.. thinking abt e past while looking into e future.. makes me feel so downcast n melancholy..

yoohoo~

sorry to... .. may ya..
sorry to yy for betraying ya trust..

yoohoo~finally a holiday.. had been waiting for so long..
bt e amt of hw piled up was like.. err.. omg.. bt at least ytd slept for one whole day.. if every wk fri no need go that would b e best i think..
tmr morning still got co.. bt tmr got small orchestra practice.. quite looking forward to it.. haha..
jus now saw chiayings friendster photo.. v v nice ^_^..
tis yr v empty eh.. last yr still can look at e bball court when i feel lonely.. tis yr extra empty manz.. look at e bball court eveythings gone,, no one in e real to think..
y wait for things to b gone then regret..?
y wait for e time to b past tense then wan to treasure..?
like love.. like friendship..
sending my most sincere apology n regret to those that i hav failed to keep my promises..
esp to... .. n to yy..
today still feel like playing bball v much.. nothing much of other things.. got to study today..

thinking of e past while looking into e future..

sorry to ... for wasting life of ya yr2000..wish..
sorry to yy for betraying ur trust..
thanks to dj for accompanying me for e yr2003.. all e best in us..
thanks to pt 2 for esplanade..
thanks to lilaoshi in june july august in yr2004..
thanks to sec 3 camp in yr 2004..
thanks to them for brightening up my days..
thanks to hl nm hm van yl yy henry derek ws wilbur for fulfilling my life with joy..
thanks to 3gr'04/4gr'05.. *note* only some ppl
thanks to ... thank ya v much..
thanks to pvps, cchms.. n cchmsco in yr2003
i miss ... miss guzheng.. miss german.. i miss sec 3 life..

yoohoo~a fresh start.. though a bit formal n brainless.. starting on e eve of emaths test..
anyway.. feeling v stressed at sec 4.. its like at e terminal stage of cancer.. everyday sit there waiting to die like that..err..no.. correction.. dying still need study so hard so many hw.. hai..stress manz.. can i jus get some sickness or sth so that i can rest for one day..
hello.. can anyone jus organise a bball interclass for girls.. im dying for a match..
todays conclusion.. fredrick is more reliable sometimes.. c lit sux..physics even more sucky.. ss rocks..jay chou rocks..