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forgot to mention tt day, i dreamt of him last wk..
ytd went to watch e movie The Myth, a real fantastic movie.. its one of e best movie ive seen, e changing of e scenes, e music, e story, e costumes, e plot all v v nice.. haha.. esp e part where e general killed many soldiers n standing alone on e pile of corpse, e way he resisted to fall, e background music was so grand n, wow.. haha, its beyond wat words can describe.. wan to watch it again another..
after all these days of debrief, e prelim results r out.. hai, tmr will b e critical one, which decides whether i can get into a jc, e c lit paper.. wa.. v nervous.. it decides whether i can get into mj..
well, i didnt look at him or look for him these 2 days at e lecture theatre, or rather i tried not to.. it reminds me of ..., n e feeling to heart shattering.. no one noes wat had happened.. ill reveal it one day, after time has recovered e wound, or when i cant bear e pain any longer..

again..?

ytd was e debrief of el n hcl paper 1.. was thinking should i start writing descriptive instead of newspaper type.. hai..
again i hav to say, watever tt does not belong to u will not stay bah.. those tt does not belong to u, even if u insist, its useless.. well, i had a further taste of tt ytd.. n it seems like i was e one hu... .. ya, thanks to me, all thanks to me.. theres no way im going to regret, no way im going to retrieve anything.. i ought to take on all these myself, cos it all thanks to me, ya rite..

prelim is finally over..

happy birthday to xiaoxu..

after so many days of suffering, prelim is finally over, finally.. bt actually felt a bit sad, dunno y la, its like u only hav one olevel prelim in ur life, then its over, ended b4 u noe it.. then when its time for results, i feel really nervous.. im not thinking to tjc for 1st 3 mths, cos i noe i started studying too late, theres too much syllabus ive not touched on.. no use regretting, so im only hopping to get into a jc, most wanted mjc, though then i will not b able to c him for 3 mths, which is v saddening.. bt theres ... in mj.. btw, if ive been studying really hard since last yr, i might stand a chance to b in rj, then i can b in e same sch again with him, though only for e 1st 3 mths, cos i wan to get in to tj no matter how gd my result is.. anyway, there r still 1 mth left, still time for me to revise, no use crying over spilled milk, though i still believe to live in dreams sometimes does help, ha..
anyway, after last wks papers, i started slacking.. went to eat haagen das ice cream for e 1st time on thurs, ok la not bad.. then fri slacked e whole day, then went to my sis sch watch her singing comp, then to e airport to fetch my dad.. sat went to sph for huixun meeting, stayed back a while more to discover things there.. sun as usual didnt study much.. then was e 3rd last n 2nd last paper.. tues holiday, slept till 12 sth, which im v guilty of, for sleeping so much on e eve of amths paper.. then hooray, was e last paper amaths.. although is e last paper, i don feel much joy, cos i noe im going to flunk e paper, hai..
anyway, playing n slacking plan will b carried out till nx wk, then e real hard studying begins..
things i will do after olevel, gathering with 6e ppl, practice piano, practice guzheng, learn violin, finish my diary, prepare for prom, update my photo album.. a lot more on e list..

regrets..

watever tt does not belong to u will not stay bah i think.. like friendship, like relationship, like obects.. like e 26 mins on 1st aug, n 27 min on 23rd aug.. wat does not belong to me, theres no use insistting to hav.. i don understand, it jjus vanished on its own.. i dunno how.. like friendship, it jus dimed without notice, n theres no way ure going to retrieve.. like time, if u don treasure it ure going to regret, yet its futile..
i dunno how to desscribe my feeling aftter recovering tis.. i can only say n advice.. nv fake things out, ure going to make a big fuss out of it.. n i regrets, yet its still useless..