new blog..

one more mth to poly term start..

today is e day, when tis blog has a sister blog.. i got an inspiration while reading a few ppls blog, only chi as a mother tongue language can really express myself.. so tts how it was born..
anyway.. ill try to make tis 2 blogs different.. though its quite difficult, as i ve forgotten how differentiate thoughts after such a long holiday i guess.. haha..
ill continue to post here as english has become part of me tt i cant part with it.. hehe..

anyway, refering to e previous post.. wat i shed tears for, they r really things i cared, though meanwhile i was amazed by e amt of things im occupied with..

tis entry aint sth meaningful.. bt jus felt tt not writing anything down, certain periods of my life seems to b lost somewhere..

i did not cry like a child, as e reasons r no longer as innocent n simple as a childs cry..
i cried, with reasons..

again today.. going on everyday, yes im tired.. im sick of it..
yes, i noe its been too long.. i noe how u felt.. i noe im being selfish.. bt trust me tis is not going to help.. its futile..
i really dunno how to solve tis.. r we really born to take on challenges like TIS?! jus to TEST UR ABILITY?! if tts e case can u stop testing me, i really hav no ability for u test..
im not blaming u of tis, i noe e reasons, really.. bt i jus cant.. i really dunno how to take tis.. cant u jus let go.. i cant, n i dunno how..
can i jus stop e time here, at tis moment.. i jus cant imagine wat will happen after tt.. i jus don think tt i can take wats going to happen.. i dont want..

tpjc

tis shall b e last time im using tis com.. meaningless life here ending today.. i regret? miss? blame on them? hu? i dunno..
while on my way here today, saw a lot of bvss ppl, n i suddenly felt tt being in uniform n goes to a sch can b quite blessed sometimes.. i dunno wat it means, bt i jus felt tt way..
im sad tt its e last time im wearing cch uniform..