busy wk..

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june holiday ended jus like tt.. last so called holiday of secondary sch life.. i don seem to haven gotten anything.. its like, a flash its one mth.. still a lot hw haven finish.. was recalling wat did i do, n found out tt i really did sat down on front of my desk n did hw, mayb too relaxed n did slowly n slacked qiute a bit.. i dunno leh, seemed to hav been doing hw bt a lot still undone.. hai..
so sch reopened with a lot work to do, huixun, can chaining project, cclep report.. then still got ss hw, hcl hw, plus hcl lesson project, aiya, i cant finish them tis wk lah.. 3 days oready didnt really touch a lot of sch work.. has been busy with report things..
n ya, heres e exciting part.. on sun when went to k box, sang jones, shi kang juns songs, haha, v proud to b in cchms to hav a singer senior like him, so handsome n talented.. ya anyway, then suddenly v curious abt his life in cchms, was thinking if i could meet him one day im going to ask him if he has joined talentime b4.. haha.. n guess wat, he will b coming to chung cheng for mini comcert... yeah~ hooray.. haha, n hm i fought a 30 min interview with him.. omg tts so unbelievable.. haha.. bt bt bt, saying is v easy la, really sit down to do a report is damn difficult manx.. jus finished studying his background info.. then found out tt fri wkly oso sharing e time with us, which means tt our time was divided, n questions limited too.. which is sad n more difficult for us to do a gd report.. hai~ i guess i not sleeping tonite le bah.. in order to work hard for everything tts listed.. including huixun, ya im sorry to my grp leader tt i hav to hand in late.. feel so sorry..
haha.. dream coming true le leh.. 1st time manx, i going to interview a popstar.. though its going to b difficult n i think ill b v nervous as im inexperienced.. jus hoped tt hm n i will do a gd job lah.. will put in my best de.. try to maintain an image as a student corresponsdent.. ganbade..
these two days had photo taking.. tues was co, n i had a super bad mood.. e reason still e same lah.. jus hated them.. hates their stupid faces insulting e blazers.. though i don really mean everyone.. n today was class.. stood beside yy.. n after tt took photo using ms chan choos camera.. e process was fun, n i took one with hl n ms chan.. hm don wan take with me, so sad.. think tts abt it le bah..
n btw, some updates bout him, haha.. he said hi to me on mon, which is so ... .. haha.. tried to smile back with a straw in my mouth, stupid face.. then tues had same pe period with him, saw him played bball.. ok lah, though he don look professional, bt hes jus gd in every sports la.. n today talked to him.. haha.. yippy.. im mad.. well, bt i don think tt i hav time tmr.. tts sad.. ya, then it ll b nx wk.. haha.. im looking forward to it, though i noe its not going to b wat ive wanted it would b.. bt i still v contented.. yup..
i looking forward to c shi kang jun, looking forward to his singing, n most imptly, see him in person n interview him personally.. haha..

last 2 days of june holiday..

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hai.. now should b at sentosa, playing crazily with txy.. bt due to slacking too much for e past 4 wks, i hav to lie to my leader tt im not feeling well.. has been waiting n thinking abt it for so long.. wanted to go so much, omg i felt sad.. its time to pay e price of not finishing hw b4 holiday ends as a sec 4.. hai.. eh? i changed hor.. if its e previous me ill jus go no matter wat, then wait till sch reopen then say.. haha.. congrats me, i grow up le.. haha..
sch reopen as compared to holidays, ill prefer holidays.. b4 sec 3 ill choose sch cos i find nth to do at home, jus slacking my ways thru.. bt now is different.. so many things i wan to learn, n complete.. 1 mth is not enough.. reflecting on wat hav i done tis few wks.. v little though i felt tt i hav been doing things all these while.. n now for i can say i don expect anything from anyone la, nth exciting abt sch at all, nth to look forward to, wheres my commitment, finish e sec 3 syllabus.. i cant finish tt in sch.. i dunno wat im talking abt, jus frustrated.. jus, sad.. im suffocating..
i felt tt my views hav changed.. mayb with increasing age, e point of view will mature bah.. for wat i c my sec 1s thinking v stupid, n i don think abt wat i think last yr le.. mayb after much disappointments, i don look forward to some things le bah.. tts sad.. n with increasing speed of e changing world, i don think i hav time for all tis oready.. sacrifices under growing up.. haha, saddening..
will update abt ytd 4gr bbq later..

co camp..

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ok.. ytd came back co camp.. slept for 20 hrs.. broke my record.. haha.. 4pm to nx day 12 noon.. cos 2 days only slept for 4 hrs.. v tired..
bt sad abt e camp.. nth i expected tt happened.. though e feelings still there.. i hate him.. i would rather he had said nth..
so 1st day.. was at e chi supplementary class.. till 12.. then they say e camp v bored so nvm.. had lunch, then was dazu, then games.. ok lah.. normal.. today nth special happened i guess.. i hate him, still hate, a lot.. then at nite talked with juniors e whole nite.. haha.. slept at 6.30.. woke up at 7.30.. ok a new day..
2nd day.. didnt had breakfast.. cos e comm was too engrossed in themselves.. then was games again.. then my fav sports time.. played cap ball.. i v sorry to my grp.. i wasnt really paying much attention cos i felt beating them was easy, n i quite pissed over e fact tt everyone hav to play cap ball instead of bball.. so we lost, for i started paying attention at mid time, by 2 pts.. sorry.. then played bball.. my fav.. tis time with st, other guys which i dunno their name oso my cb girls.. theres going to b a new scar on my face cos jasmine decided to play violent.. bt i don regret playing with them, n had a fun time, really.. think its e most enjoyable moments in my stay in e camp.. n everytime was like tt.. so i think i played not bad, except for e accuracy was a bit sucks.. bt think my skills improved everytime when playing with st.. there was once, we both got e rebound, both one of our hands stuck to e ball, bt i was a girl, so he used some strength then i lost.. hai.. bt e game was fun, n laughed a lot.. bt felled v hard on e ground once, got blue-black on my right side.. still alrite, got up at once.. haha, bt v stupid st, stand in front of me everytime i trying to shoot, noeing tt i cant shoot in front of somebody.. bt v proud of myself tt i shoot in once when he trying to gai me.. haha.. nx time got chance must play more with him, to improve my bball skills.. then was lunch, stupid st flicked my hair, then i shoot him with a rubber band, then he shoot me back, then e war goes on for a while, until i decided to stop, petty guy..
after luch was games again, then was dirty games.. n ya b4 tt miracles happened, which is i helped them tied water bags.. 1st time i helped them.. i dunno abt him, bt i can sense her negative feelings towards me, when i was jus trying to help, really, n it wasnt my fault, i wasnt involved.. i dunno how he felt, dunno how he reacted beside me, jus trying v hard to help them.. well, i dunno wat to say abt him.. haha, jh said i tied v fast, talked to him a bit, liked him a bit more, like his character, his attitudes, like his way of doing things as a chairperson..
then went back to my grp.. clothes was wet after e water game.. n i felt cold.. dirty games really v dirty, 1st station was pink flour mix, though e colour looked nice.. 2nd was giap soaked bread with ur head.. tt was fun, n we reused our breads, though it was disgusting bt i had fun.. 3rd was e most digusting game i ever had.. head into a pail of water with baked beans n dunno wat, must get out choco waffles, eggs, or mentos using mouth.. disgusting manx.. tis time must thanks to e 3 guys of our grp, esp md, cos of him we girls no need soak our face into tt dirty pail, really thanks, n he broke other grps de record, got e mentos.. it was v difficult lo.. one small mentos in tt big pail.. he said he gulp a lot water in his mouth then slowly filter.. bleahx.. n btw, tt station was by jh n fred.. so there got a bit... .. i don like e way he looked at me, don like e way his eyes shone as if he got sth to say, don like his eye expression when looked at my worried face.. ya n i hoped i can read his mind, so i noe wat his up to, n hope i can crawl out of tis hole dig by him, n by e dumb me.. i don wan to continue like tis.. jh was cute as usual, for i think he is.. haha.. then e games after tt i quite pissed.. so don wan talk abt tt..
then was shower.. most probably e last time i going to bathe in sch, n e water still cold as ever.. then dinner.. then was e nite walk.. e 1st time, i became e station master, n my location was e gym toilet, with yt.. e process was scary, at 1st we planned to both stay inside one cubicle, bt it was too dark, n we don dare.. staying outside e cubicles in a total darkness was scary enough.. was e 1st time scaring ppl.. we not allowed to switch on e light in e toilet was e 1st time, scary experience.. ok so some of them were scared, bt dunno y some were not.. if we could b more daring, it would b more successful.. bt e waiting time was v v boring n sianx.. we started preparing in e toilet since 9, then e whole thing ended at 3 sth, spent half e nite ine toilet, stupid rite.. then some don dare to walk, some took a long time, then e whole thing dragged n dragged, until i felled asleep in front of e gym toilet, as one grp can come after 40 min after another.. v bored manx.. both me n yt felled asleep.. haha, another unforgetable experience, felling asleep in front of e gym toilet.. bt tis time i v fortunate being e station master, cos tis time nite walk v scary, so luckily i station master.. anyway i peifu rit, can stay alone in e cca block bio lab, v bold hor, n v clever, can think of hanging a blazer to scare junior.. n btw, i quite disappointed with e grping la.. if... ..
so tt nite slept at 4am.. hav to wake up at 7, cos chem lesson starting at 8, if not then will let e whole class c yt n my way of sleeping.. jus imaging e whole class there plus mrs kee, looking at e sleeping yt n me plus my juniors.. v paiseh eh.. anyway, spent almost e whole chem lesson sleeping.. i don mean to bt i really cant open my eyes.. i bet yt oso bah.. haha.. anyway, when we having chem lessons, they were having farewell.. i don feel tt i hav graduated from cchmsco cos i wasnt there.. though after e buffet i saw e clips n e ppt.. i felt really touched la, n thanks to juniors.. y i think tt tis was e most touching farewell ive seen since sec 2.. is it bcos its my farewell, or its juniors jus love e way we seniors do things.. hai, when was in sec2, i think i still got a lot of time, did not expect e day when i hav to leave co.. so after e few yrs, is my turn now, i cant bear to leave co, is co, not them n i hates them.. y am i not in e comm, y don giv me a chance.. i hates them..
so think tts abt it.. nth surprises me, bt disappoints me, i cant tell wat im expecting, cos i don even noe myself, i wan to noe too, as well as... ..

24th day..

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24th day?! 24th day oready.. haiya, stupid, one mth at home still not much revision done.. sch reopen how..? aarrgh..
tmr going co camp.. hooray~ bt still need bring hw n do.. sobx.. n camp clashed with supplementary lessons.. bt im still excited.. yup, im excited abt e camp, though i still hate them, n i hate their stupid programme named talentime.. can i jus say tt ive got no talents therefore im not participating.. stupid..
n honestly speaking i don like e new comm.. e head is ok, bt others not to my expectation.. anyway i don care cos its not going to b my business anymore though im sad abt it, ya..
one mth at home, do i miss anything? do i miss sch? do i miss him? im not sure, cos im not sure abt how he thinks..
n ya, forgot to say.. 11th june was my 1st huixun meeting.. v exciting.. though i couldnt think a gd theme for our new huixun, bt our grp came out with a nice theme.. anyway, jus feeling excited abt doing e 1st huixun..
one more thing abt e camp, i rmb e feeling encountered last camp, which wiped out my excitement a little.. i hoped tt i dunno anything at all.. rather than smashing my hope after letting me noe..

18th day..

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my dad went back ytd.. took exactly e same flight as energy!! omg.. both come n return flights.. ya im jealous.. haha..
anyway, went to their autograph session on fri, bt v sad to say, i didnt get e signature..:'( sobx.. at harbourfront, a lot a lot ppl.. then they signed till 11.30, ended without my lyrics signed.. wuwu.. they said will sign again on sun at lot 1.. at 1st wanted to go, bt no one going with me n a lot other reasons so i went to orchard k box with my family then took newprints!! haha.. it looked nice.. our 1st family newprint..
i knew tt they ll take e same flight as my dad so gave him e lyrics.. then guess wat.. haha.. my dad got their signature on e plane.. haha.. though mine was really special, it was signed using blue colour i think.. then my dad queued behind milk, talked to him n shaked his hands!! im so jealous.. extremely jealous manx.. y i not e one taking e flight.. wuwu.. bt my dad like feel v paiseh doing tis kind of things.. if is my mum she will sure get more things for me, sth like tt.. anyway thanks to my dad.. haha..
haha.. n i tell u, i dreamed of him again today.. woohoo~ it was at e lecture hall i think.. haha..

13th day..

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hai.. so fast 13 days passed.. i felt lazy still..
my dad coming tmr.. so i guess not much studies could b done till nx wk..
so mon took e retest.. was in sch at 10, bt they say it was changed to 9.. so half took at 9 half took at 10.. ok e emaths test was v easy i think, most probably im not going to fail agaim.. bt sadly for amaths, im going to score 5 marks.. not trying to wat bt its real, i only noe e 1st question, which is matrices, then others either dunno how to do, don understand e question at all, or some i don even noe which topic it was from.. so sad.. i really didnt wan to fail bt i really don understand.. i noe i didnt put in enough effort, bt i jus cant understand amaths by myself, i jus dunno how to do e question, n its not my fault, its not wrong not noeing how to apply.. i really need help la~~ bt hu..
n one more big thing happened.. i got to talk to him today~ hahaha.. i got to talk to him again since e sec 3 camp.. haha.. his 1st sentence was... .. haha..
ok don wan to talk abt..
tues was in sch for e co comm election.. i dreaded to go tis one bt i hav to go.. i hate tis thing cos it reminds me of how i was being played ard with n tis is e reason y i hates them, hates their pea brains small eyes n tis stupid one-sided view n short-sightedness.. theyve got tis preconceived ideas tt makes them think tt they were always rite.. stupid.. wat makes them think tt theyve got e power to do tis?! anyway, i likes co, bt i hates them..
ok for wat i think, i didnt hear human nominees speaking until e 2nd last person.. most of e nominees hav tis close-minded way of seeing things n v shallow thinking.. omg cant they jus think deeper?is being young an excuse? come on la.. even tt kind of ppl can stand on top of me n b a member in e comm, i guess i hav nth to say, except to wish them to conduct themselves well la.. hopeless kids..
anyway.. afternoon went to 6e gathering again, haha, tis time again 7 ppl, so there were ly, sy, qw ( i think she became prettier ), maydeline, joey, ali ( left early again ), wadi ( e liar, hu came later n lied tt he haven play pool b4 bt played quite well..) n me.. played pool 1st, till 6 sth, which we left after being checked ic.. was thinking to eat cafe catel, bt ate long johns instead.. it was my 1st meal tt day, cos woke up late then didnt eat anything at all.. then after tt ly suddenly suggested to go bowling.. then all happily went to tam safra.. at 1st bought 10 games for 5, then bought another 5.. haha.. it was fun.. wanted to do e jaychou style of bowling bt was afraid tt i will throw to others lanes drain, then v v paiseh.. kept pestering them e pro ones to do tt bt they don dare.. haha.. nx time i wan to do it myself.. haha, c whether got nx time not.. bt its really hard eh, e bowling ball v heavy then v hard to swing.. haha.. tried demo a few times.. so it was fun.. had fun everytime with 6e ppl.. hehe..
btw.. got to thank joey, wadi ( liar ), ly, qw for staying so late for e extra game.. hehe.. it was late.. we played till 11 sth again..
today went to watch madagascar.. haha.. it was funny.. really laughed a lot.. bt i don think i wan to go watch any kids movie again, cos today in e cinema i was surrounded by little kids, n when they start laughing i felt tt e roof may jus fall anytime.. omg, they laughter was so sharp n loud manx.. i so cant stand it tt when laughing halfway hav to cover my ear.. really a bad experience.. omg.. bt anyway, e movie was really gd..
left 2 wks to study bt hav to minus e 3 days of co camp.. oya, co camp, haha, im excited abt it.. hai, bt stepping down tt day i think.. aiya, i cant bear to leave lah..