i dunno hu to believe..

sorry to ... .. think its time to... ..
sorry to yy..
sorry to hm..

today was sat.. a sat without co, i felt restless.. woke up at 7.30 then went back to sleep, as realised no need to wake up so early.. woke up at 3pm instead..
anyway.. think its time to buckle up le.. rmb saying tis b4 valentines.. still felt empty.. e feeling felt was like a dream, like a flash.. i don wan to believe, i wan to live in my dream, bt i cant chose.. slept till headache..
was feeling happy those days cos i decided to drop physics.. i really don wan to study physics.. i dunno if ill regret.. i hope not.. i regretted even till now, for giving up two of those i wanted to commit to.. anyway, started to feel like studying chem.. cos i don hav physics now, was motivated to study chem.. i hav 5 mths left.. i cant afford to start learning physics from now, i don hav e time.. i wan to say im not supposed to avoid, bt e reality was hard.. i was thinking if i can do well for chem, theres no chance im going to regret for giving up physics.. hai..
was overjoyed over mon.. felled so hard ytd.. how long more do i still hav to rise n fall with little things done by u.. jus a glance n a smile is wat i longed for.. how sad.. i don wan to... ..
y did u say sth like that..? is it supposed to b a joke..? did u mean it..? y, do u hav to say sth like that.. e deer died, happy?.. i wan to believe, bt im not supposed to.. y is tis so.. unfair.. can u stop saying things like that if it is meant to b a joke.. i don wan to take it anymore..
wats going to happen next..?