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ponned lecture again.. tis one not on purpose de.. anyway, thought for v long b4 i came tpj today.. thought for whether should i come today not.. i came.. now i wan to say, i shouldnt hav wasted e time to come.. same old thing happening here everyday.. nth changes.. absolutely.. really missed os times.. though piles n piles of things r needed to b done, at least i led human life.. now i am a body walking without life..
talked to cy whole nite ytd.. bet he must b falling asleep at work.. sorry ar cy.. talked abt a lot of things, perpectives, ppl n some nonsensical things.. had a v gd idea while we chat.. 3 of them should jus crash my sch so tt we can hav a try of how is it like for e 4 of us to b in e same sch..
feel like ponning ... today.. yet i saw a lot of seniors.. i really mean a lot.. such early in e morning, i hav seen e chair, vice chair, secretary, my grp leader n other grp leader, abt 6 to 7 ppl.. n they all noe me, i dunno y.. n amazingly all said hi to me.. anyway still ponning.. feel like going home now, however sch quite clever la, put gp last period, when gp tutor will confirm my attendance today..
actually theres sth else i wan to say, bout my feelings, my thoughts.. however, im becoming more n more stupid as emotions n everything by him is seriously obstructing my thinking.. i dunno how to relieve tis.. anyway, sometimes by escaping e reality can relieve myself.. though e problem will not b solved, it cant b solved even if i face it.. i don seem to find e solution no matter how hard i think.. of cos i noe wat i should do.. yet it does not solve e problem.. as if it can b solved so easily, it wont b called a problem, isnt it?
anyway, last 5 days to release of results, well, if it is confirmed.. i dunno wat ill do when i get e result slip.. seen too many kinds of reactions last yr, i dunno wat will mine b..
reasons i doubted when coming to sch.. everything i do here will b useless n meaningless if im going poly.. y waste time now.. i dunno wat i wan to say, i was jus typing watever i thought of.. cos theres really heavy jam in my flow of thought.. time to sleep.. 1 n half hr to my next tutorial.. i shall c if i felt like going..
talked to cy whole nite ytd.. bet he must b falling asleep at work.. sorry ar cy.. talked abt a lot of things, perpectives, ppl n some nonsensical things.. had a v gd idea while we chat.. 3 of them should jus crash my sch so tt we can hav a try of how is it like for e 4 of us to b in e same sch..
feel like ponning ... today.. yet i saw a lot of seniors.. i really mean a lot.. such early in e morning, i hav seen e chair, vice chair, secretary, my grp leader n other grp leader, abt 6 to 7 ppl.. n they all noe me, i dunno y.. n amazingly all said hi to me.. anyway still ponning.. feel like going home now, however sch quite clever la, put gp last period, when gp tutor will confirm my attendance today..
actually theres sth else i wan to say, bout my feelings, my thoughts.. however, im becoming more n more stupid as emotions n everything by him is seriously obstructing my thinking.. i dunno how to relieve tis.. anyway, sometimes by escaping e reality can relieve myself.. though e problem will not b solved, it cant b solved even if i face it.. i don seem to find e solution no matter how hard i think.. of cos i noe wat i should do.. yet it does not solve e problem.. as if it can b solved so easily, it wont b called a problem, isnt it?
anyway, last 5 days to release of results, well, if it is confirmed.. i dunno wat ill do when i get e result slip.. seen too many kinds of reactions last yr, i dunno wat will mine b..
reasons i doubted when coming to sch.. everything i do here will b useless n meaningless if im going poly.. y waste time now.. i dunno wat i wan to say, i was jus typing watever i thought of.. cos theres really heavy jam in my flow of thought.. time to sleep.. 1 n half hr to my next tutorial.. i shall c if i felt like going..
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